Random fact, I’ve always longed for an older brother. I’m an only child, my friends usually asks me if it’s fun, I always answer with a yes, well, I really am happy being my parents only child since I have no one to fight with (as my other friends say so), but I always get jealous when my friends share or have “moments” when they talk about problems and funny times or things about their younger or older sibling, it just makes me look so lonely even though they sometimes want to be alone too. I like being alone at home, but it seems so sad, I always ask myself what it would be like to have someone older to look up to or what it would be like to actually teach someone younger. So I wouldn’t say I’m independent since my parents are overprotective considering the fact that I’m a girl and in an unsafe world where you can only count by the fingers of people who you can truly trust. I sometimes wonder why some siblings actually fight so harsh, if they’re like that, why don’t you just accept them.. they are the only ones who you can rely on when your parents pass, aren’t they? Friends won’t last forever and only true ones remain in your heart.. we know that but, talking blood is something to care about, you know.. it’s just that if I had someone to care for besides my loving parents, I won’t do harsh things to them.. since they don’t know much or when I have someone older to look up to, atleast they can teach me the rules of growing up since I know my parents won’t be there always. I favor some guy friends as a ‘kuya’ but it seems like they’re just slipping away and we’re having our own paths. I deal with my girl friends as sisters already, that’s for sure. 14 years a gap isn’t my ideal age gap for a sibling so, I never really got to chance to think about it until now though.